Random Memory: No One Even Remembers You!

This weekend I was reminded of one of the emotional abuse techniques that the Narcissist used to use to make me feel¬†worthless. The Narcissist had successfully cut me off from pretty much everyone I knew before I met him. In the end I only had limited relationships with some of my family members and not […]

Thoughts on Closure

I’ve had a few “major” breakups in my life and have experienced the feeling of closure of a relationship in a few different ways… There was my first ‘real’ boyfriend a 3 year high school relationship. He broke up with me for a girl that worked at the super market with him… who he was […]

Analogy Hell

The more work I do to unravel my own reality from the reality that the Narcissist was desperately trying to drill into my head, the more I start to realize the various techniques that came into play to keep me continually confused. Two of the main methods that my Narcissist used frequently were Cognitive Dissonance […]

I’m Special Too Dammit!

Today’s rant is brought to you by my breaking the no contact rule. Every time I do it there is a logical reason for it, and then I suffer as a result. In the several times I have broken my own no contact rule I have been left feeling used, foolish, stupid, worthless… and ANGRY. […]

The Narcissistic Perfectionist

There are so many things about being in a relationship with a narcissist that can cause you psychological and emotional damage. Just one of the many things that my Narcissist had going on was the never-ending quest for perfection. Over time, I believed this morphed into full-blown OCD, but in the beginning it started out […]

Narcissists Suck The Life Out of You

Its been an emotional¬†week for me. I had a pretty intense EMDR / Brainspotting session on Monday night and ever since I have been feeling pretty raw and emotional. I have cried at random on several occasions… while cooking, when a sad song came on my playlist, while driving home from work. I’m talking deep […]