Sometimes just when all of the puzzle pieces are falling into place and everything feels right in your world you have a completely and totally unexpected run in with The Narcissist.
Mine happened today… in one of my safe and well-known places… Whole Foods. I was literally rounding a corner and almost got hit with the carriage of the person rounding the corner from the other aisle… I looked up, and it was The Narcissist.
My gut reaction was “deer-in-the-headlights” wtf is happening right now. I said “Hey” glanced down at the ground and made a bee-line for the cashier. None of the cashiers were immediately open so I tried to pick the quickest line, texted my best friend 50 times, sweated profusely, took a lot of deep breaths and got into my car and drove straight home. I frantically called my best friend and my sister and wasn’t getting anyone on the line which was causing me to panic even more than the run in. Eventually I got my people on the phone and talked it out a bit and calmed down the total sense of the earth shifting that was happening to me. It was like a punch in the gut reminder that he is still nearby and I could run-into him at any point in time. Totally unexpected. Totally shitty.
It’s been over a year since I have even had any text communication with him, so this one really caught me off guard. Ick!
So I guess this is just a friendly reminder that while sometimes the healing process works out really nice and linear and everything happens… sometimes you also get smacked in the face with reality and come home and take a tequila shot. No one is perfect, and at least over here at divorcinganarcissistblog… there’s no judgement!
So now, my person is coming over and I am pretty thankful for that. ❤ Looking forward to talking this one out and getting some love and support and reminded that I am safe and all is okay in the world.
For the record, you do not lose the urge to punch them in their “perfect” nose job face… even over a year later.